Crazies

I saw this article on People.com yesterday.  All I can say is that she wasn't scared because Kasey is CRAZY?!?!  At least she knows that he will guard and protect her heart.  Not that I am a fan of hers...I really think she is a piece of work (not in a good way).  They should be together.  I hope they stay happy - just pleeeeease don't procreate.

Vienna Girardi 'Absolutely Scared' of Dating Kasey After Jake

By Dahvi Shira

Saturday April 16, 2011 03:00 PM EDT

Vienna Girardi and Kasey Kahl

Fame

Vienna Girardi is head over heels for her new beau Kasey Kahl, but admits she was nervous to be dating again after her highly publicized split from ex-fiancé Jake Pavelka.

The former Bachelor winner, 24, still has reservations about getting close to anyone, based on what she calls a "train-wreck" experience with her former love.

"Even opening up to Kasey, like, we were dating for a few months, but I didn't want it to go public because I wanted to make sure it was real," Girardi told PEOPLE this weekend at Reality Rocks Expo in L.A. "I am absolutely scared of the possibility of getting engaged again. It scares me 100 percent."

Luckily, Kahl is putting her at ease. "Kasey is genuinely a nice, caring, loving person, even when the cameras are off," Girardi says. "That's what makes the difference. When we're at home eating dinner or watching a movie, he's still that sweet charming guy that he is when we're out in public. I want someone who is going to love me unconditionally, all day every day – not just when other people are seeing it."

Kahl was equally hesitant at first about dating Girardi.

"I told myself I'd never date someone from the Bachelor franchise, but I met her, and everything went out the window," he says. "She's amazing. No matter what we've gone through, and no matter what she's gone through, I'm here now, and I will make sure she's the happiest girl ever."

Betty Crocker Rainbow Chip Frosting

I'm pretty sure the undocumented ingredient that Betty Crocker put in her Rainbow Chip Frosting is CRACK.  I'm so addicted to the stuff.  I keep it in the fridge and I will eat spoonfuls of it.  Tonight I resolved to just throw the rest out.  I took the container from the fridge and walked over to the trash.  Instead of opening the cabinet door under the sink, my right hand involuntarily shot out to the right and took a spoon out of the drawer.  Sigh.  The Rainbow Chip Frosting is now back in the fridge...about 2 spoon scoops lighter.

In completely unrelated news, the doctor's last week showed that I have gained a couple pounds.

Happy Birthday, Dad

You would have been 61 today.  We're at your favorite spot, Avila Beach (which you affectionately used to call Avalon because you loved it so much), to spread some of your ashes.  We'll make sure to eat some hash browns are your beloved Custom House.  I think we're all having a hard time being here without you...there is a gaping hole.

I miss you so much.  And I'm still pretty pissed at the universe that you had to die so young.  Know that we're this weekend, this trip, is all about you.  And you're still the best dad in the whole world. I'm still so proud of you.

I love you, from here to the moon and back.

Some Important Lessons

A couple notions have sunk into my brain today.

1) You can't get to where you need to be without knowing where you need to go.
     My counselor asked me what would help me feel better.  It dawned on me...how can I begin to get over all my complicated feelings when I don't even know what would make me feel better? 

2) Sometimes you need to break open to heal or let love in.
     A story told by my yoga teacher on her experience turning 30 in India.  Related to my feelings of being "broken" for the last several months.  Maybe I can take these feelings of being broken and give them a purpose.

Perhaps navigating through these gems will give me the ability to start healing.

gross.

Every once in a while, I think we as humans experience "movie moments."  You know, one of those moments where you could swear you're in a scene of a movie.  Or maybe even a chick lit novel.  Such experience happened to me on Saturday night.

Ryan and I took a much needed quick weekend trip down to San Luis Obispo.  We ate at our favorite Japanese restaurant down there on Saturday night.  I'll give a disclaimer...I'm going to talk about some not-so-lady-like things in this post.

We waited for about 35 minutes (an eternity in SLO time for waiting for a table) - I checked with the front desk, and we still had 2 parties ahead of us.  So, I decided to run to the bathroom (had to pee) - two single bathrooms upstairs (the only rooms upstairs) - one men's and one women's.  I reached the top step and my cell phone started ringing - Ryan calling, to tell me our table was ready.  I decided that hunger > needing to go potty, so I ran back down the steps and took a seat next to Ry at the sushi bar. 

Fast forward past a delicious meal --> paying our bill. I could finally go to the bathroom.  Bliss.  Ryan decided he needed to, as well, and followed me upstairs.  I tried the door handle - locked.  A drunk girl on the other side said something to the effect of "Sorry!  Hold on!  I'm coming!"  I can't really remember the correct words she used, but I'll tell you one thing.  I HOPE I got it wrong.  Here's why.

Wait a couple minutes, and the women's bathroom door opens (Ryan is still in line waiting for the men's).  I have to PEE by now.  The girl walks out of the bathroom...followed by a guy.  OMFG.  I think my eyes were the sizes of quarters.  I'm standing in the doorway, and I'm mouthing to Ryan "what the f--- do I do?!?!" while waving my hands in the air.  "What the f--- do I do Ryan?!?!"  I hear the girl trip up on the second stair down, and I think the guy helps her (I can't see them around the corner).  Well, crud.  I close the door and look at the toilet seat.  It's down.  What the hell does that mean?  Was she drunk and was he helping her?  Or nookie?  I can feel the cooties in the air.

Ok, I decided to go for it, albeit camping style.  Wash my hands, get the hell out of dodge, and see Ryan still waiting for the men's bathroom.  Don't know what homeboy in the men's bathroom was doing...is this booty call central?  Ryan decides to give up.  We get downstairs, and Ryan proceeds to tell me the conversation on the second step that I didn't hear:

Girl (loud whisper and giggle): "OH.MY.GOD.  I didn't wash my hands!"
Guy: "Shh...don't worry about it.  Just play it cool."

The icing on the cake?  They turned in the direction of the dining room...to dine.

I'm super happy I carry hand sanitizer with me.  I considered taking a scorching shower 30 minutes later.  I told Ryan that if I get pregnant and have a completely white baby (not "hapa") (the guy was white) - it's from the toilet seat and I didn't cheat on him (yes, yes, I know that's not possible...)

Gross.  Gross.  Gross! 

Maybe I Should Rename This "My Yoga Blog"

I've been incredibly horrible at blogging lately...on purpose.  I'm still sassy and moody and all around grumpy.  Anyone want to hang out with me?  I'm super fun.  Actually, I'm trying to not be such a downer inperson.

I've turned January into Yoga Gluttony Month, in which I've now been going to 3 yoga studios 5 - 6 times per week.  Yesterday, I did a 4 hour aerial yoga workshop - and it was incredible.  I am SORE today.  Seriously SORE.  I'll post pics when I get them.

A mini-dream come true happened when I got home from work tonight.  I have a few yoga inspirations.  My personal yoga teachers that have taught me so much and touched me so profoundly.  And also a few "celebrity" ones, who I've never met but still make me want to aspire to become a better yogi.  Once of which is Kathryn Budig.  She's an amazing yogi who is phenomenal at arm balances (y'all know that those are my obsession).  Just last night, I was trying to get Ryan to take a Santa Monica trip with me, so that I could attend one of her classes at YogaWorks down there. 

SO.  I get home from work today and I see that Kathryn's Facebook page has posted that she'll be teaching 3 classes at (one of) MY YOGA STUDIO(s) in February!  You've got to be kidding me!  I feel so excited and so lucky to have this opportunity.  I'm signing up for those classes as soon as I can!

Crazy Yoga Lady Just Got Crazier

Now, I can add a third studio to my list.  I can't help it if the South Bay keeps cropping up with awesome yoga studios!  This one was truly too good to pass up.  It's opening up around the corner from my work.  It looks beautiful.  It offers so many different kinds of classes.  AND, if I signed up for unlimited monthly before they open on January 1, I get a special founders price of $85 per month for the life of my membership - unlimited.  Seriously.  I pay that for 8 x per month at Yoga Source right now.  Of course, I can't possibly leave Yoga Source...my beloved favorite teacher Angie is not (yet?) moving to the new studio.  In a perfect world, she will.  Until then, for the near and foreseeable future, I'll  be visiting 2 studio's regularly, and throwing in aerial yoga at either the third or this new one.

Luckily, Ryan's on board with it.  Whew.

Check it out!
www.breathelosgatos.com

Aerial Yoga

I went to my first aerial yoga class tonight.  I am ADDICTED already!!!!!  OH MY GOODNESS.  So much freaking fun!!

Here are the deets:

• You don't need to be an advanced yoga practitioner to do it.  In fact, you could be a beginner.
• It's at a new studio located near downtown Campbell
• The fabric hammocks that they use are in the following colors: off white, dark teal & light teal.  It's like it was made for me.
• To me, it wasn't intimidating.  Even hanging upside-down.  The hammock goes down to about waist high, so you're not up too high in the air.
• The teachers are super duper nice and make the whole experience relaxing.  Exactly what they should be like.
• It is a really nice way to get that yoga spirituality connection.
• I wouldn't say that it's difficult...but it's challenging.  It's not like arm balances difficult - but I just know that I'm going to be sore tomorrow.  Really great strengthening for you.
• There was a teacher assisting the class.  She said to me, "there's always one who wants to have fun.  And I can tell that you're that one."  He he.

I still love my power yoga, but I look forward to integrating this into my regular yoga practice!

Here is the studio's website...they also have a Facebook page, which features a lot of pictures of Aerial Yoga.  I posted a few below from their Facebook page, to give you an idea.

www.theyogastudio.biz
www.facebook.com/pages/The-Yoga-Studio/122819027754577?ref=sgm

Namaste!